THANK YOU to everyone who has left lovely messages for me. I know I'm not usually this DARK and PHILOSOPHICAL but it's been a really harrowing 3 months and I'm trying to make meaning of all this loss to make me BETTER not DIFFERENT....so hopefully the old me will be emerging soon...new and improved!!
Remember students who are now doing amazing things in the world. I think we'll see much more of Matt Zeremes...
To remember your family. Remember to hug them often and much!!! Remember to call them, no matter how crazy life gets.
Couldn't believe I hadn't seen Silvia's cousins (on her Mum's side) for 18 months!! It was Daniel's Baptism and Rainer went ballistic in the church and later at Zio and Zia's place. We had to leave early, so in reality, hadn't spoken to them for longer than that. Hearing Zia sing the "Panis Angelicus" just made me weep harder. The shoes on her coffin made me laugh and the "Salsa" being played as Silvia was being taken from the church made me laugh more!!All her ballroom dancing friends were there and I think they'll miss her much more than I will.
Family is an incidental thing. You make an effort to be with your friends and you confide in them more than family sometimes. And even though Silvia was an incredibly private person, I think they know her better than I do. That's okay though. I can't know everything about all my relatives!! I'd be a mess....we are an interesting tribe.
The wake at Dino and Lisa's was awesome. Loads of laughing and crying, catching up and seeing how much everyone's children had grown (oh, about 18 months' worth LOL!!).
I could spew on forever about how I feel, but I think there's a layout in all this grief I've experienced so far this year. Actually, it might be worth a mini-book!!! So many random thoughts and very little to do except REMEMBER. Nearly burst out crying in Woolworths today - how loopy is that??
Time for myself!!! A whole 5 hours of scrapping with Andrea Thompson at Inkredible....what a gorgeous woman Andrea is!! Delightful, I think would be a better adjective. I know I said I would never use that glamour shot again, but it was the only biggun already processed that I had for the class.
Time to celebrate ME ME ME
... and new friends... V V V